So Friday my dad calls me up out of nowhere. He says, hey buddy (one of my really old nicknames), I just got promoted to Plant Manager. My reaction is a simple “WHAT?!” that even the guys on Skype heard. So I put the Skype call on hold and we talk a bit about it. He then mentions they were going to have a celebratory dinner that Sunday. Now I’m thinking, what in the world would make me want to drive out to Utica for that? So I pondered a bit thinking of motivation. I came up with, “I haven’t seen Maeve in a while and I’ve wanted to get back with some of the old Whitesboro crew (who weren’t total fucking retards).” I call her up, we discuss it and it’s decided I’d show up before I went to dinner that night. I figure, cool. We’d get together and maybe do something fun.
First off, I haven’t the damnedest clue where Morrisville is. So I figure I’d pull up Yahoo maps and figure it out from there. Ok, an hour to get there. Not bad. I call her up Sunday morning and she was still in bed from pulling the night shift. I said call me when you’re more awake. She does that afternoon so I get on the road over to where she is. I get off the thruway (I-90 in this case) and start taking a few roads to the college. After about ten minutes the only thing I could think of was: “Did I die and move out to farm/cow country?” seriously. So this is what the rest of New York State does. Farms, trees and cattle as far as the eye can see and then some. So I ended up at the school and one of the first things I say to Maeve was, “You couldn’t of picked a more out of the way college could you?” I thought that was marginally funny. To be perfectly honest, it’s like the town lives for the college.
But as I was there we kinda yapped about random things (such as how it’s always windy down there), sat on the trunk of her car, walked around, hung out in her room and listened to music. We talked about seemingly random things and found out there are more things we have in common than I originally knew. I called my dad around 4 and it turns out nobody was showing anyway. Though, the only real bonding we got to do was a goodbye hug as I headed out.
I got home and just felt really pissed at myself. There were so many things I wanted to talk to her about. Like her boyfriend (about what she sees in him, I don’t know him), if she was going to hold up her promise (won’t explain this one, personal) and the truth about what she said to me before. See, I’ve been having these thoughts going through my head recently about my rejection and someone brought to my attention later “Well maybe she doesn’t like you.” This was really a put down and I couldn’t figure it out. Would she lie to me for my own good and why? I couldn’t figure myself out. I turned in early.
I woke up the next morning and took out some frustrations in XI. I earned Level 75 Black Mage (finaly) but have not capped my buffer yet (I’d say it’s about 10K out from it). I was feeling sleepy again so I went and took a nap. I got up again and Johnathan Stopchick was there, so since she knew her I struck conversation with him about her. He basically gave me some insight on her and said one thing. “Rationalize it.” He said to make a list of stuff I like about her, not opinions. I think I’m going to do this. I don’t know how I feel about chasing her anymore.